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Addiction & Recovery – Week 14

13 weeks into the Master Key System training, and another breakthrough!

Early on in the process, we learned from watching What the Bleep do we Know and Down the Rabbit Hole that we’re all addicted to our habitual thought, word and behavior patterns.  The reason for this addiction is easy to understand.  Thoughts, words, deeds, relationship dynamics and situations all give rise to endocrine chemicals.  It is these chemicals, and the cellular response thereto, to which we’re all addicted.

I accepted this knowledge without doubt, but I didn’t really identify in concise terms my own addiction.

I have some experience with addiction, at least in the usual sense of the term, as that is a common companion for those of us with an active bipolar disorder.  I appreciate the work of Bill W and his friends and mentors in creating the 12 steps of Alcoholics Anonymous.  I’ve used the 12 steps in recovering from an addiction, and they present a powerful framework from which anyone who’s willing can work.

A significant part of the 12 steps focuses on inventorying and amending.  We inventory our faults, failings, fears, emotional states, decisions and beliefs.  We apologize to others who have been hurt, harmed or otherwise impacted by the related thoughts, beliefs, words and deeds.

The reason for this in the 12 steps is that negative emotions are often “triggers” for addictive behavior, especially when one is not sufficiently self-aware to recognize one’s emotional state.  Therefore, part of the recovery process is to become sufficiently self-aware to respond, rather than react, to one’s emotional state.  It is commonly believed that addictive responses are designed to assuage pain, especially emotional pain.  Recognizing the presence of emotional pain is helpful to choosing a response rather than being subject to a patterned or habitual reaction, especially an addictive response.

A helpful mnemonic for this is HALT, which stands for hungry, angry, lonely and /or tired.  When one, especially unawares, encounters basic emotional pain as in the HALT emotions, the human reaction is to do something to kill the pain.  Addictive substances and behaviors are good for that, at least temporarily, but they are inherently self-destructive.  And, when one acts in a self-destructive way, one then creates a vortex of destruction that almost always harms others.

Negative emotions are fear-based.  And, every fear-based emotion is a reflection.  It must have a “place” within us from which to be reflected.  In other words, such emotions must have a “place” within us to “stick.” Therefore, others may offer me emotional programming, sometimes in ways difficult not to accept, but I will only be tempted to incorporate such programming in my matrix if I have a place for it to land or stick.

An example may help.  I felt prompted to release the emotion of anxiety during a session of self-care recently.  As I contemplated that emotion, it struck me that anxiety comes from a lack of awareness of one’s own power and/or a lack of conviction about God’s power and His willingness to lend that power to us as needed.  In more severe cases, anxiety stems from actual denial of one’s power or a denial of God’s power.

As I pondered this idea, the previous separation between inherited stuck emotions and my own stuck emotions seemed artificial.  My antecedents may have offered me emotional programming, but they didn’t actually program me.  I did that all by myself.

I applied my own creative power, independent of any other being, to form the program of my life.  And the code of the program is my thoughts.

Circle back to addiction.  Think an addict’s thoughts, and live the chaotic, destructive life of an addict.  Been there, done that.  Don’t recommend it.  Think saintly thoughts, live the beatific, peaceful life of a saint.  Haven’t been there yet, but headed that direction.

And it suddenly struck me!  Though I had applied the 12 steps to free myself from the addictive behavior with which I previously marred my life, I was still addicted to the chemistry associated with living a life on the brink of utter chaos.  What fed me in all that was a sense of being heroic for constantly, with few exceptions, being able to actually avert disaster.

What do you think?  Isn’t that the quintessential definition of addictive insanity?  Courting chaos so I could be heroic for avoiding it.  Sheesh!  Good thing I have a better way available.

Now, if it hasn’t been your privilege to be close to an addict, that’s OK.  You can just imagine what it’s like to be in the orbit of such a person.

For me, the good news in all this is twofold:  1) diagnosis is 90% of cure; and 2) creating a new, harmonious pattern will result in an addiction to peace, prosperity and harmony.  Now that’s a constructive, progressive addiction!

It seems the next step in creating the new pattern is to affirm and internalize the truth: that I am whole, perfect, strong, powerful, loving, harmonious and happy.  Any other perception is an illusion, and not the truth.

I loved Mark J’s Week 14 video with the illustration of the Tower of Babel.  The idea that an “external,” like a tower, will get you to heaven is of course preposterous.  And yet, this metaphor struck a chord with me because of the addictive thinking above noted.

I, too, had fallen prey to the idea that a pin level, income level, &/or possessions would somehow make me whole.

And now I know the truth: I am whole, perfect, etc. just as I am, and no pin level, income, possession or achievement will add to that.  I expect the just fruits of my labor, but they are to be enjoyed as God intended: with gratitude, giving glory to Him, not needing any glory for myself.

Close the circle to recovery.  As I recognize the truth of my power and the availability of God’s unlimited power, all fear fades, giving way to the light of faith.  As I bask in that light, I make no more places for fear-based emotion to land, nor for fear-based programming to be installed.  And without those “hooks,” pain dissipates, having been replaced by joy, love, peace, understanding and other fruits of the Spirit.

No pain means no behavior or substance is needed, including my own body’s peptides, to assuage it.  No pain management; no addiction.

Praise be to God for providing us the methods and pathways we need to liberate ourselves from the bondage of the temptations of this mortal sphere.  “And ye shall know the truth, and the truth shall set you free.”

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Voyage of Discovery – Week 13

Life is a voyage of discovery.  Every day we resume the voyage, headed towards our destination, and we set the sails.  We may not pick the wind or the height of the seas, but we set the sails, and we hold the rudder.

And what do we discover?

Every day, we discover whether we’re ready or not ready for the goals and objectives we’ve chosen.

Because, as is has been so profoundly stated, it’s not the wind, but the set of the sails that determines where our ship will go.

My experiences this month may offer a good illustration.  I’d set an ambitious professional goal.  When I set it, I thought it reasonable and achievable, though stretching.  I didn’t count on mutiny from within.

You see, the master key mastermind alliance is preparing me to unfold into my best self, and my progress so far had me believing I was ready for a big step forward.

One of the conditions I thought past is depression, specifically the bipolar variety.  By the grace of God, I’d happened onto a 3-element regime that eliminates, or so I’d thought, all the physiological causes of my bipolar depression symptoms.

And yet, over the past 3 weeks, I experienced, 3 or 4 days per week, depression symptoms ranging from mild to moderate to almost severe.

And, then, yesterday, a breakthrough.  The week 13 webinar talked about the lengths to which some of the mental crew will go to keep the ship of life on the old course.  And outright mutiny is not beyond the pale.

I was simultaneously stunned and elated.  Because I knew then the truth.  The mind cannot effectively discern the difference between a vividly imagined event and a real one.  Charles Haanel’s words from Lesson 2, paragraph 14, Lesson 3, paragraph 4, Lesson 4, paragraph 4, Lesson 5, paragraph 8, Lesson 7, paragraph 23, etc. came ringing back.  Health is the real truth; illness is an illusion created by inferior thought.

Just as one is never again fooled after understanding a magician’s trick, my conscious mind was suddenly liberated from the bondage of the illusion of depression.  I had laid a solid, scientific foundation for mental health.  Therefore, the appearance of depression had to be an illusion contrived by my subconscious mind running the old blueprint!  And a vivid illusion it was, too!

The bad news for this month is I wasn’t ready for the destination for which I thought I’d set the course.  The good news is I now have better sense than to fall for the same trick twice.

So, my sails are once again trimmed to profit from the wind, and my rudder is set with an eye clearly fixed on the land of promise.  I didn’t die trying, and I have strength for the next leg of the journey.  As Mandino says, slightly edited, surely one tack at a time is not too difficult.

Are you troubled by the one step forward, two steps back phenomenon?  Take heart.  As you press on, you’ll find ways to keep moving forward, thus eliminating any tendency to retrogress.   Teachers, guides and mentors are all around you, just waiting for you to be ready.

Remember, life is a journey of discovery.  If you aren’t ready today for progress, tomorrow’s a new day.  Mandino gives us good advice in scroll 3.  Forget the day that is past, and focus on today, because, after all, today is the best day of your life.

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It’s a War in There – Week 11

It came to me last week that I’m in a battle of the blueprints. My old blueprint is at war with the new one, and my inner child is the battleground.

Or, at least that’s how it seemed to me at first.  What emerged from several days of treatment, therapy and meditation was a thread of enlightenment that freed me from the battle:  opposition equals choice.

There is a natural flow of energy all around us and within us.  Sometimes that energetic flow presents opportunities for us to perceive opposition, and my previously more infantile, western-trained mind perceived opposition as conflict.

The truth is far different, for those who are willing to see it.  A sense of opposition can portend conflict if that is desired or if that is a person’s default posture.  In reality, we create conflict from opposition by choice.  I learned that placing myself in opposition was usually optional and not recommended for serenity.

I will attempt to illustrate by describing briefly the sequence of events that led to this realization.

The “battle” idea came Tuesday evening.  What followed on Wednesday were two scheduled treatment / therapy sessions, one with my chiropractor and one with my massage therapist.  Here’s what transpired, to the best of my ability to articulate.

I offer that disclaimer, because all truth is spiritual truth, and one is only able to perceive spiritual truth by aligning with the Spirit of Truth.  Therefore, you’ll see in me what you’re ready to see in yourself, and no more.

In the treatment sessions, I was able to experience a sense of the ongoing cyclical flow of energy in my body and the ongoing cycle of ebb and flow of the cerebro-spinal fluid.  To get there, however, a couple blocks to the flow had to be recognized and removed.

One of the blocks seemed to be an inherited sense of the futility of action.  In other words, a number of my antecedents had internalized, unintentionally, the idea that success was impossible.  Therefore, action was futile.  A couple other related emotions were released in the same sessions.

I came away feeling jubilant, not anticipating the other shoe dropping.  Still, even the temporary sense of connection stemming from the conscious sensation of the flow of energy within me was very exhilarating.

Thursday morning the other  shoe dropped.   I awoke with my back about as seized up as it’s ever been.

I worked through releasing some emotions using Dr. Hansen’s Emotion Code framework.  A cascade of emotions poured out, many of them what Dr. Hansen calls “inherited” emotions.  Part of the process of releasing emotions was the internal energy awareness gained on Wednesday.

That process continued Friday morning in preparation for two more treatment sessions Friday afternoon.  I came away from the treatments feeling better, if a little dazed.

Saturday morning an early appointment prevented in-depth self-care, to my benefit, it turned out.  On returning home, depression set in, and I was all but immobilized until late Saturday.  A few more emotions were released, and, late in the day, the depression passed.

This pattern continued through the next several days as my therapy sessions, emotion release ministry, meditation and personal development practices continued.

After eight or nine days of this pattern, I seemed to perceive a harmony:  it isn’t many things; it’s one thing.  In other words, my mind (or spirit, if you like), my body and my emotions aren’t separate entities.  This is an integrated system, to the extent I’m willing to allow integration.

Back to the idea of conflict.  Perceived opposition, combined with an inclination to choose conflict, activated by fear, causes emotions to “stick” to the body.  That “stickiness” binds the fascia to the muscle, in some cases, causing stiffness and pain and trapping the emotion in the body.  In other cases, the emotion lands and sticks on neural tissue or joints.

In my case, several factors were acting in concert to facilitate a release of trapped emotion: stimulation of fascia, muscles, nerves and joints via the physical treatments, stimulation of new thoughts via the Master Key System-led blueprint change, and my willingness to attend, recognize and release the trapped emotions via the Emotion Code.

I’m grateful for this experience, because it’s allowing me to see and sense in others some of the same perceived difficulty, and I now have some great tools to help them more quickly find relief.

Hence the main lesson: opposition is a constant, but conflict is optional.  With the space that awareness creates, other choices are possible.  And the best news of all?  We get to pick.

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Week 01 – Fear of Flying

It was interesting to observe my body’s reactions to my commitment to participate fully in the Master Key Mastermind Alliance sponsored by Mark and Davene Januszewski.  It was as if my subconscious mind was anticipating dramatic disturbance in the status quo.

My internal gyroscope was on tilt!  All sorts of fears and questions arose.  What if you fail, again?  What will your wife think?  How will you make sure to succeed?  What if you’re not good enough, skilled enough or sufficiently diligent?

My body even attempted to get me to make bad choices in response to the internal chemical cascade caused by the fear.

This was a great example of the truth that we are all driven by the thought, feeling and belief patterns of our subconscious mind.  And, changing those patterns usually brooks resistance.

Fortunately, I was ready for the resistance, and I recognized the pattern for what it was.  And, towards the end of the week, I remembered a reassuring scripture:

“Therefore, dearly beloved brethren, let us cheerfully do all things that lie in our power; and then may we stand still, with the utmost assurance, to see thesalvation of God, and for his arm to be revealed.”  Doctrine and Covenants 123:17

I took this as a love note from a loving Heavenly Father.  We only need do that which is within our power.  As we cheerfully do so, His grace covers any gaps and assures ultimate success.  And my fears abated, and my faith returned.

I further learned by this lesson a great truth about network marketing.  Network marketing is the same.  We cheerfully do all that lies in our power, working a proven, simple system, and then we can watch the system deliver, over time, the results to which we have committed.  In other words, it’s not about doing everything, at least not all at once and not necessarily all at first.  We do our part, the system does its part and the Lord does His part.

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